With the leaves falling and the chill rapidly growing, I’m reminded of the passage of time and the irrefutable need to re-align my perspective. My life has found itself once again in a foreign landscape, this one being solely focused on working. Yes, clocking in and clocking out, that kind of working. While I stand behind my decision to do this, I can’t deny how hard it’s been to make this transition. My days are never ending and I’ve barely even had a single day off to do my own thing in the last month. That being said, I think it’s time I make some fall/winter resolutions. Who says you need to wait until New Year’s to begin working on yourself? Ideally, I’d like to keep track of these self-assigned initiatives through the blog, but I can’t make any promises right now. To start, let me just give you an outline of how I foresee this happening. If all goes well, it may even transform the way my blog is written and organized…
nourish // physical health
Because I’ve been working morning to night almost every day, getting proper nutrition into my body has been quite an obstacle. Not only am I unable to snack frequently like I used to, but when I do manage to get a break, I inevitably resort to something pre-prepared from a cafe or worse – fast food. This madness has resulted in chronic fatigue and vertigo (not to mention that my feet are always sore from working). How did it come to this?… Thankfully I haven’t packed on too many pounds because my jobs entail being on my feet nonstop BUT I do feel like my muscles are turning into jello. I need to discover a new way to pack protein and vegetables into my daily diet and figure out how the hell I’m gonna find energy to exercise even if it’s just once a week. I am absolutely sure that this will cure my ailments and get me back on track to a healthy balance.
organize // private spaces
I’ve recently moved with my boyfriend (for the first time ever) into a new home. Unfortunately it aligned with my new jobs and thus my home has been super neglected. Clutter abounds and walls are still blank. This kills me. The only reason why I haven’t done it is because once I get home, I’m too tired to do anything besides lay down. But I cannot give up and I have no intentions to. I am determined to make this home functional and inspirational despite my limited means and limited time. The key is to simply break everything down into small, private spaces. One project at a time, one accomplishment after another. Hopefully within the next few months, everything will eventually have it’s place.
ignite // relationships and connections
Again, little time and little energy means losing a lot of things you were once committed to. Unfortunately that also means relationships. I haven’t gotten a chance to spend quality time with or talking to anyone I love in a very long time. Save for my boyfriend (because he lives with me) and my family (because they buy me plane tickets to see them), every one has fallen by the wayside even though it’s the very last thing I ever intended. I know that the absence of those closest to me – their words, their beauty – is killing me ever so softly. It’s easy to ignore that this is happening because of how much it hurts to think about it, but I can’t let this continue. The solution? Just like with my home, I have to do whatever I can. Perhaps it’s sending a short hand-written note. Or texting a loving and encouraging thought. Whatever it is or however I’m going to do it, I am going to try to make sure that the fire stays alive in all of my relationships.
create // original works of art
I’ve obviously ordered this list from least to most difficult. Sigh….creating works of art. The reason why this is one of the latter goals is because it cannot happen unless the first three are accomplished first. I can’t make things or create beauty until I restore a balance within myself and with those around me. This is the whole reason I began this blog and I’ve made a promise to myself to not let it go. There is a space in my home that will be a studio. And I will be making lovely things there (once I get organized).
forgive // myself
No matter what happens in the next few months, be it success or failure, it’s important that I not be too hard on myself. It’s okay to take my time and it’s okay to do small things. As long as I hold fast to my intention, I know that good things will lie ahead.
What resolutions are you working on? What do you do to make sure you reach them? Do you have any tips for me as I continue this journey?
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